Finding Value In My Vagina.

As an adult woman, I never felt like I had a healthy relationship with my vagina. Largely, because of the trauma centered around peer sexual abuse during my childhood. At the age of 13, I was victim to an unfortunate event with two boys that took advantage of me. This incident created a division in me and it has taken up until this point in my life, at now age 49, to fully come to terms with it. So when I decided in February to receive a vaginal steam treatment with Nakea Murray, who founded VTox Intimate Health & Wellness , I surprised myself. Although, this sort of treatment would be new for me; what better way to begin rebuilding a healthy relationship with my vagina than this?

What is vaginal steaming (Vsteam)?

A VSteam is a centuries old practice of using water and medicinal herbs to cleanse, calm, restore and heal the female reproductive system. (source: VTox website)

Why now?

At this time in my life, Vsteaming feels right. Since, I had felt disconnected from my vagina, (I call it my “sacred storehouse”). making friends with it is another part of my healing.

Appointment Day

I went on Wednesday, February 22nd with a bit of anxiety, even though I had been preparing for this for a month. Thoughts were swimming through my mind like,

‘what if if were just too much for me to mentally handle?’

‘ What if I freak out?’

‘What if I had a sudden bout of diarrhea’ (yes even that came into my mind).

However, after coming to my senses, I shook it off and decided to be fearless. I grabbed my keys and headed out the door.

My arrival

When I arrived at the spa I immediately felt at home. It actually reminded me of my crystal shop. It was intimate and private. Nakea warmly greeted me and ensured me that it was my time to “just be.” As I sat in her beautiful lounge she made sure that I had an understanding of what was to come, what it consisted of and what the benefits are. 

She allowed me to ask as many questions as I wanted. The intake process was comforting and her voice was very nurturing as she asked questions about my background.  I did mention that I am going through perimenopause and that I also experienced peer related sexual trauma. It was then that I paused, not to cry but to gauge her response. Although, I'm not alone in healing from this form of trauma I am new at admitting it publicly.

She preceded to look me in the eyes and said, this is an opportunity for you to release anything that feels trapped or closed off to your greatest sense of freedom. Not only physical freedom, emotional and spiritual freedom as well. It was within that moment that she gained my complete trust and my new relationship with my "sacred storehouse" would be forever changed and the one I truly wanted.

The Treatment

When I went into the treatment room it was beautiful. There were a variety of pink colors in all shades, from lightest rose to deep fuchsia. These colors surrounded me with their empathy and calm while the entire room soothed me with its care that Nakea designed with respect to sacred femininity. I was immediately drawn to the butterflies on the wall with their poignant messaging, alerting me to the power that I have within.

For me to get comfortable, Nakea provided a stack of plush towels, a neck pillow with my choice of garment to wear for the treatment. I chose the one that would allow me to come full circle on my new relationship with my vagina. It was deep pink with orange swirly patterns sewn in spirals. Spirals are a symbol of coming full circle without spiraling “out”

The Magical Herbs

Nakea sat me down at the place that I would get my treatment and assured me that if I felt uncomfortable at any time I could ask for assistance and she would make adjustments. Adjustments would be made to the temperature of the heated steam from the variety of healing herbs to suite my needs. The steam is gentle and a little more than warm. Just to be clear; there is no threat of burning or having any boiling herbs fly into places you’d rather not have them go. This is simply like a facial for the lips “down there.”

Now back to the herbs, Nakea creates a variety of herbs (think like blends of tea) for the stages of a woman’s life and the physical circulatory needs of our vaginas. I consider myself a wild and wise archetype woman headed into my crone years so she picked a blend just right for that. The nurturing steam was very therapeutic and oh so relaxing.

To accompany my treatment and to remain off of my phone ( busy entrepreneur that I am) I was given my choice of music ( I chose jazz) and herbal tea (I chose the passion blend) and I just sipped, listened and enjoyed! Once completed, she asked me if I wanted a couple minutes longer as she was blending the next herbal treatment and of course I said yes!

The After Party

After the steam treatment was completed, I moved over to a stainless steel basin for my foot soak ( unfortunately I have no pictures as I was phone free). This was the icing on the pleasure cake! The footwork was another herbal concoction of pure delight! The aromatherapy alone was intoxicating as well as the gel like texture that was the perfect compression for my tired feet to absorb. My never endings and circulatory system was in heaven!

After the foot soak was done she ended things with exit consultation. Nakea shared with me suggestions for the after care, simple things  that I could do for the remaining hours of the day to relax and to embrace what just occurred. She also mentioned that she would check in with me the next day in which she did. I am so happy that I received this type of care with Nakea at Vtox Intimate Health & Wellness and I will definitely be back. In fact, I am so encouraged that I am looking to make it a routine treatment.

If you are interested in V steaming you can find out more at the her website Vtox or Email: vtoxbody@gmail.com